Nightmare
This song is inspired in my childhood night horrors and nightmares, I've suffered severe SP (SLEEP PARALYSIS) for many years, and I have volunteered twice in my life for its documentation and research, so it is a theme that is recurrent in my music and art, and this song is somehow a way to release all those dark feelings and fears regarding this condition, dedicated to all the children and people in that has undergone this horrid experience. You're not alone and you're safe! Below you can see an illustration of the kind of "night horrors" I used to experience more often. This song was included in my first album "Ancient Shadows" (2006) which featured sleep paralysis and hypnagogia as main arch of the project.
The illustration above is from my second album "The Underliving" in which all these shadowy creatures had a more benevolent "cloak" and I started to overcome and understand my fears. Sometimes our fears are just part of ourselves that are warning us. I found a healthy way to get this disorder. In my third album Fear no More all Darkness will be lifted. A journey of acceptance.
You want me to fail
But you can’t have me
When darkness falls
and creeps upon me
half awake
or half sleep
may I ask you
wistful wraith....
what do you long for?
Shades
with spider fingers
cast a spell
a curse that lingers
but long ago
I shed this nightmare
to be forlorn
(And when I deny you..)
You appear before my eyes ...
deceive me with your lies
and drain my will to drink my tears...
feast on my deepest fears
You're coming in disguise
pretending to be a friend
and though I don't believe
You still will come when all the lights get dim
Vanish into oblivion
go and leave me alone!
Go back where you belong!
Go!
(gasping)
I can’t move, I can’t shout
my hands are tongue are tied with fright
Without defense I cannot fight
The horrid things that come at night
But I see your shadow crawls
like ink your cloak unfurls
a cloud of rags as black as coal
jumps over me to stain my soul!
But you can't steal it from this shrine
You can't take it cos it's mine
You want me to fail...
But you can't have it
You're not real...! Go!
When darkness falls ...
And nightmare comes
/ghostly whispers/
Liar, Deceiver
I won't lie to you
Stay the night with me. Haunt me
Child, do not distrust me
I'm forsaken, forgotten
dream of me
remains of myself ...Nightmare
Quieres que falle
¡Pero no puedes tenerme!
Cuando cae la oscuridad
y se arrastara sobre mí
medio despierta
o medio dormida
¿puedo preguntarte,
espíritu anhelante....
qué es lo que buscas?
Sombras
con dedos de araña
lanzan un hechizo
una maldición que permanece
pero hace mucho tiempo
que condené esta pesadilla
a ser desterrada
(Y cuando te niego)
Tú apareces antes mis ojos...
me embaucas con tus mentiras
y drenas mi voluntad para beber mis lágrimas...
y darte un baquete con mis miedos más profundos
Vienes disfrazado
fingiendo ser un amigo
Y aunque no crea
aún seguirás viniendo cuando todas las luces se debilitan
¡Desvanécete en el olvido!
¡Vete y déjame sola!
¡Regresa a donde perteneces!
¡Véte!
(respiración agitada)
No puedo moverme, no puedo gritar
Mis manos y mi lengua están atadas por el miedo
y sin defensa no puedo luchar
contras las cosas hórridas que llegan con la noche
Pero veo tu sombra deslizarse
tu capa se despliega como tinta
una nube de jirones más negra que el carbón
salta sobre mí para manchar mi alma
Pero no puedes robarla de este templo
No puedes cogerla porque es mía
Quieres que falle
Pero no puedes tenerla
No eres real ....¡vete!
Cuando cae la oscuridad...
y llega la pesadilla
/susurros fantasmales/ :
Mentiroso, Embustero
No te mentiré
Pasa la noche conmigo. Acósame
Niña, no desconfíes de mí
Estoy abandonado, olvidado
sueña conmigo
restos de mi... Pesadilla
